Everything seems so messed up, so un-fixable.
I suffer for myself and for the others.
I think I am taking everything too serious.
I know life is short and I want to see the good parts of it but I can't.
At moment, the more I try to fix, the worst things seem to look.
I struggle when I feel useless and I will change this.
Then I have all these thoughts, all these things I want to do. It all piles up in my head and doesn't let me think clear.
My head is spinning so much it makes me sick.
I try to focus.
Everything I want looks now so far away, so platonic, so utopic. But I have a fighter's blood (my mom) and I wont let her down. I just want to smiiiile properly again...

ps. pE0Ple Who WrYtes Lyk ThiZ ANNOY ME!!!